I was at work yesterday morning, busily doing some morning task before receiving a text from my cousin Jiaqi.
In the message, it wrote,
" Call me. Grandma is in the hospital. Serious.
I'm not sure what has happened yet. But there was foaming and no pulse.
Tan Tock Seng. I am rushing there now.
A&E- Emergency side"
My heart skipped for quite a bit before I held up the phone to give Jiaqi a call.
He told me he couldn't reach my mom, and I frantically dialed my mom's whatever contact numbers, but still to no avail.
I left the office in a jiffy and took a cab over to TTSH the very next moment.
It wasn't long before I tried spotting my family members when I reached, and saw a few familiar backs in a semi circle facing me,
and immediately i knew that they were listening to someone talking, and yes, the doctor.
I hurried my steps there, and found out that my maternal Granny was in the emergency ward trying to get rescue,
and the doctor said that she has regained her breathing pulse but it was weak.
Doc went back in, and the rest of us, 4 cousins and my mom, waited worriedly right outside the unit,
and I am unsure if we wanted to hear some news, or rather, not hear any news..
About 15 minutes later or so, the doctor came out again, and this time it was bad,
granny didn't manage to sustain her pulse and in her soft tone, mentioned that the chances or regaining back the pulse was near to zero.
Everyone was in tears, looking at mummykins made me felt even more heartbroken.
I was holding on to the less than 1 percent that granny might just miraculously regained her breathing…
And when a weird-looking bed was pushed out by the nurse from the ward and she then handed me this..
It was a devastating moment, very.
Granny is gone.
We had a last look at granny,
The passing came very sudden, but we were thankful that she didn't have prolonged sufferings before she left us.
She seemed peacefully asleep when we saw her, and just that she felt so cold..
I suddenly had so much to talk to her to.
She saw hurhur twice, but I have yet to tell her more about him.
I was so excited about my convocation this July, and am thinking of getting her a new set of clothes to wear,
in due to take a professional family portrait together then.
And, I just started my job, i wanted to give her a part of my first official payroll after the first month….
August 2009, lunch on the weekend.
ChiangMai Dec 2010, the room we shared.
ChiangMai Dec 2010, elephant show.
ChiangMai Dec 2010, uncle's birthday.
ChiangMai Dec 2010, at the hilltop.
Dec 2010, Nex Mall opened, lunch at din tai feng.
Jan 2011, dinner with the family. Her great grandson, and granddaughter.
March 2011, Granny at Hokkaido a few weeks back.
I am feeling sad and I miss Granny.
It seemed like I just saw her yesterday.
Been 3 days and at times, i just don't think the truth has registered in me yet..
I miss granny calling me at times to talk about concerns of my uncles and asking me how am i doing,
I miss seeing granny walking out in her vintage flower shirt and long pants, carrying a small black sling bag like she always do, to the car to head out with us for frequent meals.
I miss granny telling me what new things did she receive from friends/cousins and got all up smiley when telling me.
I miss granny smiling and looking at the camera no matter how many times she was asked to take a picture.
I miss touching granny arms while walking, and always extending out my forearm for her to hold whenever its up or down the stairs.
I miss granny telling me that my cousin got a girlfriend, another tying the knot soon, and asking me how is me and my boyfriend.
I miss granny making pineapple tarts during every new year for all of us.
March 2011, Hokkaido.
I am glad Granny has lived a life to see her great-grandson and daughter, to do travelling with her beloved children and grandsons/daughters.
Thank you Granny, for all that you have given for the family, for being such a lovely and dearly granny.